In the mean while...

Well,now I know NO ONE reads this blog =.=''
so I'm kinda lonely :<
oh well,anything can happen...right?

right now,to much tests and stuff,my head is already spinning!! and my best friend have some problem and she doesn't want to tell me >^<'' so I dunno what to do...
and her boyfriend is worrying like crazy! and I dunno what to do about it as well :S
but I have to say,people used to tell me "15 is crazy? wait until you'll be 16!" well,I have to say,15 was the CRAZY year,not this one.
this one just have to much tests,I'm a fool in live with a FOOL (lol) and all the drama is with my best friend so...it's kinda boring year :/

well,this one is FAST cause I need to go,so..

Goodbye~

new day,my head hurts...

Just woke up...
I need to go out more,to much tests and homework...it's sucks...
thanks god that next year will be my last :D and there's almost NO classes,I mean...
no math,grammar,history,bible,and more that I don't remember right now :D
but I really waiting for next year,in the summer vacation I'll be learning to sew better,and to cook :D AND I can be more gyaru then now! (because of school I can't really be one...and that my mom doesn't want me to color my hair).
and,next year I'll have my new phone,because orange sucks...I mean,I have this phone year and a half so they say I can't change it,and it is a sucks phone! and they told me it's good,LIES! anyway,and I found a pretty good phone,but I can have it only next year...I mean I need to wait 3 or 4 months until I'll have it,but I can wait :/
I can't wait for summer vacation <3

my best friend,is,my best friend XD how can I say it...
she got this thing to make my annoy by she says his name and making hearts and those stuff...and day by day I can't say that I love him Oo''
it'somehow harder...and I feel that I love him MORE everyday! I mean,when he next to me I can't breath my heart stopped and I just look down...and it's pretty stupid <.<
I think about him to much,I can't learn,AT ALL! >^<''
it's like he is everywhere,and when I just look somewhere he is there,it's....annoying in some way,and ALL the things that I hate about him,GONE! I mean,I can see them as good things somehow,even the things I hate the most about a person,for him I can just forget about it Oo''
I need life,I need to find someone else,but then again,I DON'T WANT SOMEONE ELSE! It's like I want but don't...and I hate it,my best friend,Oz,told me that he is the one,and there's two options:
1.wait a very long time and then you'll forget about him (but I don't wanna...)
2.or you can't because he IS the one,there's only one of him (don't wanna as well :<)
so sucks...it's like wanting something you know you can't have,cause he doesn't want me or like me or something,my best friend says different,but it can't be! he doesn't look at me anymore,and he can be near me somehow,and he got problems already so...grrr!! >.<''
I'm talking to much about him @.@'' I need to stop...* stopping!*

I want to PARTEH! thanks god that Yom Ha'atzmaut is near :D
I really want to go out! I dunno with who but WHO CARES!
and then my mom got me this guy from here that she wants me to date ._.''
and when I tell him no,my mom gonna be kinda mad...heh...how fun =.=''

anyway,I need to get ready to the restaurant...
bye~bye! have fun <3

can't sleep

it's 01:00 AM in here and it's sucks ._.''
I didn't sleep all day and I can't sleep...why? cause I'm still worried...

I don't know what to do,if I'll see him another day,faking a smile and feeling sad in school I gonna cry...I JUST CAN'T STAND IT!
he thinks that I stopped looking at him,that's good,now he can have less trouble then he already got...
but I still can't stand it,it's like,I dunno,it's just makes me wanna run into him and hug him and say "everything gonna be ok,don't worry" and squeeze him and cry...but I can't...that's sucks! >^<''
why? just why?...god...just saying that makes me more worried...

my phone will be late,why? I dunno,I saw few girls (look like 11-14) that have this phone in blue,it's kinda make me lil bit childish :S
but still,a beautiful phone <3

I forgot to photo my best friend and her boyfriend...and the stuff but don't worry tomorrow (today.. ._. in a normal time) I'll show you :D or when I'll get my new phone... :S

no comments last time? why? I don't get it...I mean,I'm that boring? :/
it's just,that every time I see new post in my friends blog I read and trying to make a comment,I mean,that's what I suppose to do,right?
so why? and another thing...how do I make friends? cause following it's kinda dumb when the two people follow each other anyway. :S
oh well...

anyway,good night/day and have a great week :D

TO MUCH PRESSURE!

well,as you can READ,I have allot of tests and quizzes to do in those few months...
so I couldn't write those few weeks because of that...so here we go!~

what happen mean while is that the person I love,kinda in trouble..he might be even in prison ._.''
some cops arrest him for making graffiti (even that he didn't made any graffiti and it was his friend) so now he is in trouble, because they gonna accuse him for making ALL THE GRAFFITI IN THE AREA.so he tries to get a lawyer but it will took a while to get the money and his court is really soon...poor thing...I mean..I DON'T KNOW WHAT I MEAN! I,like,really don't want him to go and everything and I think about it allot but I can't do anything but give him money that he isn't accepting...so I don't know what to do! cause he is angry or hate me or something so every time I go near he like runs or yell or I don't know...so,what to do?...

well,mother and father were back from London and New York and they bought allot of cool stuff :D they bought me allot of things (more then all my brothers at once.. WEIRD) so maybe sometime I'll show you!~ or maybe I'll show you my room too! :D

I'M GONNA HAVE A NEW PHONE!~ hurray!!
it's gonna be Sony Ericsson T707,the girlish phone :3
I kinda like it,and most of the previews said it's a really good phone so I'm kinda happy :D
at leasts,a NORMAL phone! and,I hope,it will be in pink~
I don't know if I'll decorate it or not because it's look good as it is...so,what do you think? if you think yes what decorations?...

well,that's for now...ah! my best friends have a boyfriend! I might show you some pics of them and everything!

thanks,and bye~

._.

that's the best thing to describe what happened today...
told my best friend my feelings,and it LONG talk,My friends are angry with me but it is my fault (about friday night),and I think tomorrow I know it will be boring...so,what we'll start?

I told my friend about my feeling for someone I just realize I love...and hate,in the same time. @.@
I mean,HE IS ANNOYING!,and stupid,and idiot,and egoist,and childish,and he criticize EVERYONE!,and...and...he is acting like a monkey!!! >.<
I HATE HIM! but at the same time love him,I mean,I can't stop thinking about him...
and he is kinda cute...(I NEVER SAID IT!!),and he is smart but not in math,and he can be a really nice guy,and he have a really good taste in music and games,and he knows how to make people laugh,and he have a really beautiful eyes,and he understand people,and he is funny,and he....OK I need to stop!!1!!1!1
gawd...it's so bad?...I know no one read this but help would be really nice :S
cause I'm not so strong like people thinks,and if I'm not at this! I feel so scared next to him,like I want to squeeze him with love and hate >.<
I can't not look at him when he is around,and he is EVERYWHERE! and sometimes I think some people look like him,and sometimes when I say I dated someone I accidently say he's name! it's stupid and crazy! cause he hates me! my best friend says he loves me but somehow it's impossible,I feel like it can't be that he likes me,or even love me! I can't...
we had a really stupid and hard time together,we were best friends,and next we fought all the time,and then he thinks I did something that I didn't do (he used every friend of his to "defeat" me) and he doesn't believe me,and then I fall in love with him...WTF?!
it's stupid! so help,please give me some...

now,another topic...
dolev didn't came to school today,I think it's because of me...it is my fault,I needed to tell anton that I don't want him,and tim as well!
it's stupid and childish of me,and next time I'll see them,I'll tell them...
somehow...it will be hard :S
but I love those girls,so I won't make any guy to take them away! ^w^
but i'll change it,and that's it!

tomorrow will be SO boring,
It's like a free day tomorrow...nothing happened in that day :X
but I don't really like that day... except math, because me and my best friend in the same class,and I always get 100 :D
but tuesday will be SO boring!! there where really NOTHING happens!
maybe i'll be in the library and blog some more :P
it's pretty funny that I actually like blogging here...even when the layout pretty bad,but cute...

so goodnight and sweet dreams~

Forgot

LOL,I forgot that I have a blogspot,but I see I won't really use it :S
it was a tough week...and annoying one...
my Friday(of last week) was terrible!
that how it happen: slept with my friend's house,it was fun :D
she had a birthday in Sunday of this week so I slept over (today i'll sleep in her house again) so we went to meet some friends,and those friends called them selfs "The Russians",maybe because they ARE Russians. Oo
anywho,at first they were only 4 people,a couple (girl and a boy) that they were for like 5 seconds,and 2 boys that one of them is really but REALLY coward! I mean he is afraid of ANYTHING! next to him,I was the man @.@
and,he was starting with me (after 2 days I got it that he was starting with me...I'm a really slow person) and one of my friends likes him so she got joules! it was terrible! I didn't mean it and she knew,I got a boyfriend,and I don't need another one thank you.
so it was 4 of us,me,my friend called Chen(but I call her Nils),Anton(the coward person),and Vetas (Nils's boyfriend).
in a few minutes another group of four and then allot more people came.
in the end there was pretty allot people and few of them were alex(my polar bear),Valer(I HATE HIM!!!!),Tim(someone really annoying),Maya(my sweet friend),Tal(my best friend),Dolev (my friend),and some that I don't remember their names @.@
anyway,Tim started with me as well,and nils likes him so it was pretty annoying,she asked me all the time if I like him and I like "NO! AND NEVER WILL!!!111!1!" in an angry way. :S
and yes,nils have a boyfriend and like somebody else,stupid? indeed,but I'm in the same way.
liking someone else but with someone else...but I do lil like my boyfriend.(and he knows that I like somebody else) <3
anyway,two boys that my friends like started with me,my best friend was upset,and that's it...

THIS Friday:
WOW...another weird night @.@
first,few boys did it with a balloon (that look like Hitler) XD
and then allot of people in such a small place ._.
and then I was only in Nils room,because it was so cold! and allot of people came and go...
Anton still started with me,and very time when I was sitting or sleeping next to another boy he was REALLY down :X
Tim,was pretty nice,I mean NICE,he helped me,and when he saw that I was cold he tried to help me to warm me :3
Ilia(ex-boyfriend of Maya) was drunk so he started with me when he was drunk... @.@
my best friend was mad at me AGAIN because she though that I started with someone she likes (and then I got mad) =.=
anyway,it was FUN! no way that I look at it,it was fun :D
and so,that's pretty the night I had :3

thank you for reading,and goodnight.